God knows our strength even when we have difficulty believing it. He also knows what it is he has planned in advance for us even when we can’t see it. There are times we will go through things and feel as though in our weakest moments we don’t have the strength to go on. God will give us strength. We just have to believe, trust in Him, and hold on.
Every day I sit and wonder what my purpose is as I still try to figure out what is my passion. And for the most part I do this because there are so many things I am passionate about but I struggle daily with being able to engage in the simplest tasks given my health. While I know there are people in this world who are in worse condition than me I can’t help but wonder at times why it is so hard for me to make a difference in the world. I can honestly say I know what life is like because of my experiences every day when trying to gain enough strength just to make it out of bed and do something to bring God glory. It doesn’t stop me. I still do. God knows my strength. He knows what I can do.
I have the strongest desire to minister to the masses and one day complete the work of the Lord, but with all the things I am dealing with I feel like I am failing God. Although there are some of the kindest people who remind me daily that I do, even when I don’t feel like I do. At times when I sit from my bed and send inspiring, encouraging messages to social media platforms, I feel inadequate. My body is not equipped, convinced I’m disappointing God when confined to a bed when I can’t do things to fully serve him. Yet I realize in actuality God is using me even in the simplest ways. I mustn’t compare myself to others. It’s just a trick of the enemy trying to convince me otherwise. I know I’m unique and not designed like others.
I felt bad because I had not posted to my blog much last month and it has been more than a week since posting today primarily because for the past few weeks I had taken ill and felt I was letting my followers down in some way. I’ve been seeing doctor after doctor every day for the past two weeks and had been put on three different medications that have stabilized my conditions after taking a turn for the worse on last Friday. Since that time I have had a testimony.
God is in the blessing business today and every day. This is what the doctors had to say. The doctors said, “You may have this so we will have to run tests. We will wait for the reports to come back.” MRIs came back. No brain tumor or veins abnormal. The scans were normal. The ultrasounds were done. They came back normal too with the exception of one irregularity that I have to follow up with the doctor that I am declaring healing believing God in advance for too.
God said “My report has already been done. By my stripes you are healed. It’s already done. I tested your faith in the trial. You knew I was there with you all the while. You ran the race. You kept the faith. There’s still a work I have for you to do for my glory. You didn’t lose faith. You may have cried out in your anguish wondering why, but it was only for a little while. You understood my grace was sufficient. Well done, my good and faithful servant.” There’s one more appointment to attend where a major test still has to be done that I’m declaring healing believing God in advance for. Please keep me in your prayers. God’s will will be done.
Sometimes the most difficult things to face can be the hardest to accept even when we know God will work it out for the greater good. Have faith. It will all work out for his good. Sometimes our greatest fears teach us our biggest lessons. To always have faith, trust in God, and never worry no matter what we’re facing.
Whenever you find yourself facing a storm, anchor yourself in the presence of God. Know that he’s in front, on side, behind, and with you. He will see you through the storm. He will never leave you.
You don’t know my story. I don’t know yours either. But if I heard yours or you heard mines, we’d know it was God who put us back together.
Life’s challenges will cause us to feel like we’re drowning in the sea of life. Know this. God is our anchor. He will make everything all right.
Be blessed! –JD
Hebrews 6:18-20 “18 so that by two unchangeable things, in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have fled for refuge might have strong encouragement to hold fast to the hope set before us. 19 We have this as a sure and steadfast anchor of the soul, a hope that enters into the inner place behind the curtain, 20 where Jesus has gone as a forerunner on our behalf, having become a high priest forever after the order of Melchiezedek.” (ESV)