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Happy Ten Year Anniversary to Me! God Set Me Free. Celebrate with Me – Glory!

As I sat in pure silence the other day, a bit sadden after reflecting on the events that changed my life forever ten years ago that day, I tried to collect my thoughts. It marked the beginning of insurmountable challenges I would face as a result of unexpected changes in my life that left me helpless and hurting. Remembering a time when I lost control of what I thought was a stable life and there was nothing I could do about it. I felt I suffered not to live, but only to die from the discomfort, agony, and pain in my body. I thought my life was over.

For a long time, I could do nothing but talk to God. I poured out my heart to him. I told him there are so many things that keep getting in my way preventing me from truly walking in my purpose and my calling. At times, I wanted to give up and turn away from my calling. Times when I felt I didn’t have strength to go on. Traveling through unfamiliar territory, down unknown paths, forever winding roads, never knowing where it would lead. Convinced when I became a believer things appeared less complicated in my former life.

I believed it was easier to retreat and go back to that which was comfortable, convenient, and familiar because it meant I wouldn’t have to deal with being uncomfortable or be inconvenienced. I told God I wanted to do something different and not do this anymore. But something just wouldn’t let me give in, no matter how many times I spoke these words. I couldn’t help but know that God was in the midst of it all. Every time I thought I wanted to give up, God had a way of sending someone to affirm his purpose.

God just would not let me be. When I couldn’t sleep and lay wide awoke early mornings with thoughts running rampart in my head, trying to figure out what is it I am supposed to be doing. He kept on pushing me. God was sending a message. It was something he needed me to hear. I don’t know why I was having such a hard time with this. God clearly had already sent the answer. I guess I just was not listening.

Transparency. I must be honest with myself because I cannot move on until I let go of what’s hindering me. I know there’s an anointing on my life. The devil wouldn’t give me the time of day if I didn’t know Jesus. “And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose” (Romans 8:28).

Then one day I realized the magnitude of suffering, trials, and tribulations I experienced was necessary although it had been twelve years I first began and ten years this month living with chronic pain. My life changed forever.  But none of this was about me. God was preparing me for what’s coming. I can feel in my being that it is going to be something bigger than me. God would get the glory.

It is where my spiritual journey began. I had to go through some things as part of my spiritual development. God was shaping me into a better person; helping me to grow for a greater purpose. That I may be used by him for his glory to fulfill his purpose. And although I may not feel equipped to handle it, God knows it is the best thing He designed just for me. It’s coming.

One day I woke renewed as tears welled in my eyes as I’m listening to Smokie Norful’s Dear God. When hearing the words, I was in tears. It was speaking to me. Thanking God over and over for setting me free.  I wanted to tell the story of a life that may have been troubled over the years, but showed the life I now celebrate and by the grace of God I’m here.

To celebrate the spiritual journey I’ve traveled, I thought what better way to commemorate the occasion, with the help of family, than to create a video with Smokie Norful’s Dear God capturing timeless pictures and some of my favorite quotes I created over time to inspire others as well as myself of the life I managed to overcome by the grace of God.  To chronicle my journey filled with smiles, hope, and life renewed. Thankful God set me free, even at times when I didn’t understand it.

I’ve come a long ways even though the journey seemed like forever. Not realizing then it would be my testimony. People may have walked out on me when I thought I needed them most. It didn’t matter. When I look over my life, I have no regrets or complaints about what I’ve gone through.

I may get discouraged at times and want to give up. Change and growth was necessary. I will keep my eyes on the prize. I won’t give up. I won’t look to the right or to the left. I will look to the hills from whence cometh my help. I’ll keep growing stronger in my faith. God never promised our life would be easy. He promised he will be with us through eternity.

Life has a way of showing you who you’re meant to be when you go through trials that are far from easy. Many may have left along the way. I thank God he didn’t let them stay. He knew there were some that couldn’t go with me. They couldn’t handle where he’s taking me. Look at me. Grace looks good on me! I’m a living testimony. I will walk in my destiny.

Thank you Smokie Norful! This is the story of my life. Lord I thank you for my life.

Be blessed! –JD

John 16:33 “I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” (NLT)

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Dear God, I’m Fearless, Free; Chains No Longer Bind Me!

Dear God,

Dear GodTen years ago I lived in fear. Instead of being fearless, I allowed the enemy to cause me to lose myself and live in fear. You see, I was afraid. I lost material possessions and my health was affected not because of me. But because of things which I had no control and I blamed everyone instead of myself. I could not find fault in me. I even lost you. And to make matters worse, I wasn’t afraid of you. In fact I was afraid of what people would think of me because of what I didn’t have or what I could no longer do for them. I was not concerned about what I could do for you. I was more concerned about them.

In the beginning I had many, many regrets and blamed everyone else for my anguish. There were people who walked out of my life I thought I needed for my provision. However you came and taught me it was you and only you I needed for my provision.

So, today I began to reflect on my life and decided to write a letter to the devil. I expressed the joy I’ve found in you and how you’ve changed my life forever. I told him, I broke up with my past long time ago. I threw away things that continued to hold me back that I felt needed to go. I laughed at him and declared disappointments won’t make me miss my destiny. I said to him, “Devil, you no longer have control. What God has for me is for me.”

I parted ways with my haters when I asked God to show me my friends. I looked around and realized over the years I started losing friends. It didn’t take long. They left me.  I began to celebrate myself in victory. Glory! I’m free. Chains no longer bind me.

I then began to think, being a Christian doesn’t mean we have all the answers because we know God. In fact we don’t know the answers but have faith and trust in God. God knows what lies ahead in our future.  No matter what happens when life changes, we must place our faith in Him and what he has prepared for us. He knows the plans he has for our future.

Take it from me. Don’t allow your disability to disable you to do, whatever it is your body may be physically capable of what God knows you can do. Be strong. Do what you know God has called you to do. When we know God and we know the word and what He instructs us to do, at no time should we ever have to ask ourselves, “What Would Jesus Do?”

I used to wake wondering, asking God how long, when will this end? Now I wake with a renewed spirit, my soul cries “Yes” not wanting it to end. All you’ve been through. Testify, even when the devil tries to ruin you. You’re a witness. Praise God. The battle is not yours, it’s the Lord’s.

Stop expecting from others what you know you won’t get from them. You will always be disappointed in them. Do what God expects from you. Revere him. This is what he desires from you. Relationships will end for different reasons every day. Whatever the reason, God uses people in our lives for his purpose to see his glory. You mustn’t focus on what was or what could have been or what you think should be. Look to God. Have faith. Know that God will do it. Believe!

The place where you are right now, in the midst of what you think are problems, really is God perfecting you, preparing you for greater. If God doesn’t do anything else, he’s done more than enough. Praise him in advance for what he’s doing, what he’s going to do, and for what he’s done.

God led me out of wilderness. He broke the shackles from my feet. Chains no longer bind me. Devil, I no longer live in fear. I’m no longer afraid. I’m free. I am fearless! Glory!

Be blessed! -JD

Psalm 56:3-4 “3 Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in you. 4 In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?” (NIV)

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