To lose your identity because of your past is to devalue your worth as a result of it. Take joy in knowing this. Your past does not define you. God defines you. God loves you. Know your worth. In God’s eyes you are worthy.
To be driven by what others think about you based on your past is to deny your belief in what God knows about you based on your future. God knows the plans he has for your future. Don’t let the attitudes and opinions of others distract you from what God has already planned for your future.
For years I kept denying God’s plan for my life in my refusal to consistently follow him. I refused to follow his order. I was disobedient. I resisted every attempt I made when it came time to reading the Bible to understand, learn, and grow in knowledge of God even though I was raised in the church and knew who God was. I knew how much he loved me. I wasn’t sure what he desired of me. Yet I allowed the lack of love from others define me. I used a million reasons as excuses to why God could not use me.
I had many flaws. I used to think I was not of value to God. I didn’t think I had anything to offer Him. I had low self-esteem and I was resentful towards people who didn’t look like me but felt looked better than me. I went through life hating (yes hating) myself because I was too skinny and thought I was not beautiful enough. I was too short, thought I was worthless, and I would never be a model because I was not tall enough. I could sing but felt I would never become a gospel recording artist or entertainment singer because I did not meet society’s criteria. I allowed the world to define my character.
I made matters worse by allowing others to define my self-worth. I kept holding on to the opinions of others and past hurts. Letting people convince me I was not beautiful inside because of my ungodly ugliness on the outside. I allowed them to fabricate only to expose hidden blemishes because of my unsubtle ugliness. Then one day I stopped listening to their voices. I listened to that small whisper of God’s voice. He told me, “Do not be dismayed. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. You are unique. I created you the way you are on purpose. You will be used for my purpose. Man does not define you. I define you.”
Now I’m free. Free of the chains that bound me. I’m no longer bound by my past. Everything I do centers around my Father, whose love and favor towards me will outlast. All that the world may think matters to me. I matter to God. That’s all I need.
God does not look at outer appearances; he looks at your heart. No matter your past hurts or flaws, you can be used by God. Your past does not define you. Your past is only a reflection of the things you managed, with the help of God, to get through. It is a mirror image of your future. You are chosen by God. Regardless of what you may have done or who you are. Step out of your comfort zone. You can still be used by God.
People may never appreciate, value, or think good of you. Don’t let it deter you from believing what God knows is best for you. The plans of God are good and perfect. God does all things in decency and in order. His plan is perfect.
Yes, God can use you! Don’t let others define you. Your past will not stop God from using you. Let go of doubt, fear, and lack of faith. Make a declaration today.” I’m fearfully and wonderfully made. I am unique. I am God’s masterpiece. My past WILL NOT define me. God can use me!”
Be blessed! –JD
Ephesians 2:10 “God has made us what we are, and in our union with Christ Jesus he has created us for a life of good deeds, which he has already prepared for us to do.”