One of the most difficult things to overcome is moving on from tragedies of life that can keep you bound. Let go. Let God. You shall live and not die. Never waste time worrying about what you can’t do nothing about. You will only disappoint yourself. Put it in God’s hands. Let Him handle it.
Yesterday was one of the most difficult days I felt I’ve had to face since losing my mother. I accidentally threw away something I felt was my lifeline and couldn’t stop crying. I told God, “My life hasn’t been the same. I feel so alone. I can’t do this. I don’t want to be a Christian anymore!” I vowed I would stop being a Christian as of today. As if it were just that simple.
I asked Him “What am I supposed to do now since I can’t pick up the phone to call my mother to pray for me? Who can I call? Who is praying for me?” My daughter said something profound when she told me, “Mom at least you have a back up to what you lost. It could be worse.” I was so distraught I failed to pay attention to what she said. I woke this morning feeling worse as tears flowed like a river and cried to my sister who hugged and comforted me, assuring me everything will be all right.
I then begin to ask myself, “Am I a fake Christian? Am I not who I say I truly am because I fall apart? And want to give up at the least distraction even when I work to inspire others? Am I supposed to fake being perfect because that’s what others expect of me? Why do I feel guilty when bad things happen to me? Is it not right to be imperfect, helpless, hurt, or broken?” Am I really a fake Christian? The answers are no and no. I’m not. God does not require I be perfect. In fact he expects the opposite. I’m a Christian who sins in need of a Savior. I’m supposed to be lost, fallible, or broken.
Otherwise how can God do his part? How can he put back the broken pieces of my life when I feel helpless because things around me are falling apart? How can he mend my broken heart if it’s never broken? How can he save me if I never need rescue? How can he correct me if I’m a perfect Christian? I can’t be perfect but I can strive to be more like Christ every day. I’m not a fake Christian in no way.
Then I realized this is nothing but a trick of the devil. He’s riding my back so hard I couldn’t seem to shake him all night nor this morning. He must know something major is on the way. It tells me my breakthrough is coming!
Yes, every day is a struggle but what I’ve come to know, once you give your life to God, there’s never a good reason to stop being a Christian. You may falter and fall by the wayside. You may even lose your faith and fall short. Hebrews 6:4-6 tells me a believer need never worry because he will never lose his salvation.
There is nothing we can do to ever make God stop loving us. No matter what we go through, he will be and is always with us. He is the great I AM that I AM. He can do anything but fail. Just because you are a Christian, don’t ever be ashamed of your flaws. Don’t ever be afraid to proudly share your testimony.
God loves us more than we can ever love him, even when we lose sight of him when things are not going well. In times of trouble he is a present help. Faithful is our God. There is nobody greater than our God. Praise the Lord!
Make the devil mad today. Serve him notice. Show him your battles scars. Let him know you serve a mighty God. The battle has already been won. No matter what you go through, let him know you will never give up!
Be Blessed! – JD
John 10:27-29 “My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me; and I give eternal life to them, and they shall never perish; and no one shall snatch them out of My hand. My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater than all; and no one is able to snatch them out of the Father’s hand.” (NASB)