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Someone’s Fighting A Battle You’ve Already Won By Grace. Don’t Take Life For Granted. Be Thankful For It

Won By Grace JoaynnLife can be a struggle. And at times it can be difficult to get through the day when faced with situations that leave you feeling empty, weary, and hopeless.

We can never know what a person is going through when looking in from the outside. We don’t know how many times they have prayed to God and feel their prayers are not being answered.

Nobody knows how many tears they’ve cried, how many times they’ve cried out to God for help. How much anguish, both spiritually and mentally, they have faced when their heart is grieved beyond comprehension.

Yes, we may see the beautiful pictures and smiles that tell a different story. But in the inside they are hurting. While the world never needs to know all your secrets. It should be kept between you and God. Never judge a book by its cover.

Each of us are going through something. Be hopeful in the Lord. Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him (Job 13:15). No matter what troubles you, know God is a healer. Whatever you’re going through, know God is with you. He will never leave you or forsake you. Life may be hard. Say to yourself, “Yet will I trust you God.”

God hears the prayers of the righteous. Prayers of the righteous avail much. Pray without ceasing. Pray for everyone.

Be blessed! – JD

Psalm 37:25 “I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread.” (AKJV)

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There’s So Much to Be Thankful For. Thank God. Count Your Blessings – Past, Present, and Future

wpid-img_20150210_085418.jpgLife has a funny way of being very unpredictable. Leaving us uncertain of what’s to come. When we think we got a handle on it and are prepared for it, something out of the ordinary happens.

We will encounter trials, heartbreak, pain, and unusual challenges that may cause us to stumble in our faith. We may fall by the wayside but we remember to never cease praying. We fall down. We get back up. Understanding, God is always with us no matter what.

We may never know what to expect day-to-day. Give thanks to God always. Wake every day believing God for a miracle, no matter the storms. Praise God. He will see you through the storm. No matter how difficult life’s journey may be, invite the presence of God into any situation. Give glory to God. Count your blessings – past, present, and future.

Make a declaration. Let God know you’re grateful. Simply say, “Lord, I Thank You.” Great is thy faithfulness. Tell him, “God, we may not know what the day will bring. We thank you in advance for everything. You’re greatly to be praised. We give you all the glory.”

Be blessed! -JD

Psalm 103:1-5 “Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless his holy name! Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits, who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, who satisfies you with good so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.” (ESV)

 

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God’s Plan is Much Greater Than What We See. Have Faith. Believe!

wpid-textgram_1407220058.pngOftentimes we may never understand the meaning of life, the actions of others, or the workings of God. Yet we continue to live. Not realizing where we may find ourselves is not because of what we’ve done but because of what God is doing and has done.

Life is a journey, filled with unwinding roads, unforeseen circumstances, insurmountable obstacles, painstaking moments, and impoverished mindsets. At times, may cause us to lose our way, changing our mindset. Failing to see God in anything. Be assured, God is all knowing. He cares for us. He loves us and is always with us.

Sometimes trials are meant to test us. To see just how much we trust God. No matter the circumstance, He wants to know how much will we trust him. He wants to know if we trust what he will do, regardless of what we’re facing, knowing in the end what we will do. He knows what he’s going to do.

Prayer is key. It unlocks the door to faith. No matter what you may face today, have faith. Know that the answer is just a prayer away. God is sovereign. He would never bring us this far to leave us. Put your trust in Him.

It is never for us to understand why things happen as they do or why God does what he does. We only need to have faith in what we cannot see, believing God’s plan is much greater than what we see.

God has a plan and we’re part of it. Don’t fret. Great is thy faithfulness. Trials will come. The storm won’t last forever. God is the same yesterday and today and forever.

Be blessed! -JD

Deuteronomy 28:1-3 “And if you faithfully obey the voice of the LORD your God, being careful to do all his commandments that I command you today, the LORD your God will set you high above all the nations of the earth. 2 And all these blessings shall come upon you and overtake you, if you obey the voice of the LORD your God. 3 Blessed shall you be in the city, and blessed shall you be in the field.” (ESV)

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Listen To The Cry of A Silent Victim

I’m going off subject again today.
My mind’s scattered. Thoughts are all over the place.
I woke to some disturbing news the other day
And have not been able to sleep or shake it all week.
I tried to put it in the back of my mind, but something is not letting me.

It keeps surfacing in my thoughts so I must release it to clear my head.
Things like this cannot be left unsaid.

My heart is heavy laden.
An innocent teenager took his life the other day.
He sent a message on a well-known social media platform
Earlier that morning, that same day
No one paid attention.
All I could do was pray.

He posted a goodbye in the wee hours of the morning.
So it definitely was not a time during heavy traffic where it could not be noticed.
Sadly, there were many clicks on “likes” by his friends.
I’m confused. Why didn’t anyone see the warning signs then?

He seemed uneasy and restless. He blamed himself for the mess.
He apologized before whatever was planned by him to happen
Clearly during his time of distress.
He seemed unhappy, as tears welled in my eyes.
Then he ended the post and said goodbye.

My heart sank. Tears of sorrow filled my face as I cried.
It took all the strength I had to accept what I knew already happened. He died.
I know he either had parents or someone who cared about him
That could have been notified.
This child was clearly crying out for help before he took his life and died.

Social media has a massive process of notification for everything:
Mentions, promotional ads, retweets, even notice of ones who are trending.
Even more disturbing is how easy it is
For officials to track and catch potential culprits in a place like this.

But when it comes to things like this, sadly there’s no app for it.
Why isn’t there an alert to track key words of potential suicide victims?
Who may connect to lines to aid in suicide prevention?

My prayers are with this young man’s family.
My heart aches and is torn in pieces.
It hurts tremendously.
Words cannot express the sadness or pain I feel.
I pray for peace, comfort, strength; that his family may be healed.

While I cannot blame social media for the events that have occurred,
I can only hope that in the same way we use social media to spread the word.
Not only of events that matter most to us,
But place a greater significance on things such as this that should disturb us.

Not that we may find recognition or potential success.
But because it is imperative we find a way to take notice of things such as this.
In the hopes we may help save a life.
Assured it is not remiss but will help because of our sacrifice.

This child’s life may have been saved
Had someone taken responsibly and taken the time to carefully read his words
And took heed to his warning.
Instead of ignoring and acknowledging his effort by clicking “likes,”
When he silently cried out for help before ending his life.

Suicide is a serious issue oftentimes I feel we fail at recognizing; miserably.
We don’t take it seriously.
We ignore the warning signs after it’s too late.
If only someone will only listen to the cry of a silent victim before it is too late.

Let this be an example of what we can do
As a society to rightfully help potential suicide victims make it through,
In a platform that gets the most attention.
Use social media to your advantage, to get the right attention.

If we take heed to the warning signs when it comes to saving a life.
We can be the person that may help save a life.
Know that a cry out for help clearly calls for our attention.
Let social media not be just to gain potential followers,
But alert anyone that will listen.
Listen to the cry of a silent victim.

Thank you for listening. -JD

For more information on how you can help someone who may be suicidal on social media, please visit the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/GetHelp/Online.

God, I know you’re listening.
Please hear my prayers as I pray.
For the family and friends of those
that lost a loved one today.

Comfort them in their time of need.
Restore whatever strength they may have lost.
Help the family find peace.
Give them hope for tomorrow.
Assure them all is not lost.

God, I know the pain may be unbearable.
And it may be hard for them to overcome.
But I know you can and will help them get through this.
No matter how hard it may be for them. Let your will be done.

To be absent with the body is to be present with the Father.
Though, they will be sorely missed.
Bring the family to a place where they can receive joy in knowing this.
And understand they are in a better place and is no longer in pain.
They don’t have to cry another tear or feel sorrow ever again.

God may the family find rest in your arms.
Hold them safely in your hands.
Handle them with care.
Comfort them as only I know you can.
In Jesus’ name, I pray. Amen.

Matthew 5:4 “Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.”

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Rejoice In Disappointments

Cape Disappointment State Park

Cape Disappointment State Park (Photo credit: dalem)

Every day we are faced with life’s disappointments. We can become disappointed by a number of things which can be hard to accept.

Sometimes jobs can be hard to find but disappointing when easy to lose. Relationships can be developed over time but disappointing when easily lost in a matter of seconds, days, weeks, months, less than years oftentimes over trivial matters.

True friendships can be hard to find but acquaintances can be easy to discover when in search of a life we choose to live in secret and undercover. One that may not be centered on Christ but exist clearly out of our need for a social life.

The unexpected loss of a loved one can bring disappointment as well as hurt beyond measure but hard to recover because a heart cannot be easily mended. We can encounter individuals who lack compassion, sensitivity, respect, or are just plain mean with hardened hearts but will easily offend us.

Disappointment can come in various forms, but basically it simply means we are disappointed by the world which oftentimes will bring a lack of trust, destruction, and warped perception.

But the one thing I find most disturbing is disappointment with self when we already know what is to be expected when we encounter certain situations in life, especially ones that are not in our control. And what can be even more frustrating is how we handle it. Because many times we want what we want, when we want it, how we want it. And will use any means necessary to see that we get it. Overlooking the fact that some things will not happen the way we want but instead will happen exactly the way God plans it.

As believers, we are given the astute advantage of knowing how to deal with disappointments in life because we have God’s Word as a resource that can bring clarity and wisdom. It will allow us to be conscious of the decisions we make when faced with it. We must be open to change. Face reality and know that disappointment cannot be avoided. However, we are to expect the unexpected but never forget God in the process.

When faced with problems that are beyond our control, we are to persevere and seek God. It is at this time we will seek to do and not seek to ask why. It is our opportunity to grow and mature in our relationship with God when we profess our troubles to him. And ask what is it he wants us to do with this and not what we are led to believe we are to do with it.

It is through our experiences that will help us learn to trust God. It’s a component of how we grow spiritually and mature in character. It helps us to grow in faith. Faith requires us to trust that God has a better plan even when we cannot see it or understand it. We learn to depend on God and not ourselves.

Disappointments are part of the norm. It’s to be expected. But even more so, sometimes God uses circumstances and allows disappointments to strengthen us and compel us to fully trust him. That we may avoid believing we can live life apart from Him. It is our opportunity to move closer to Him even in the midst of our deepest disappointments. Because God does not desire that we look to man or our circumstances but to Him.

If God brings you to it, he will bring you through it. He will show you what he needs you to do and will equip you to do it. Respond to life’s circumstances positively rather than negatively. Trust that God’s provision will give you the power to sustain and overcome no matter the result.  Choose to walk not by the flesh but in the way God has made available through the Holy Spirit.

God promises that nothing, I mean nothing will happen that he does not have control. He will work it out for our good and His glory. We may disappoint God many times, but he never gives up on us. Don’t give up on him. By his grace, move forward.

Rejoice in disappointments.

Be blessed! –JD

Habakkuk 3:17-19 NKJV “Though the fig tree may not blossom, Nor fruit be on the vines; Though the labor of the olive may fail, And the fields yield no food; Though the flock may be cut off from the fold, And there be no herd in the stalls— 18 Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation 19 The Lord God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer’s feet, And He will make me walk on my high hills…”

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Life Is A Mystery

Scenes from the life of Jesus Christ, triptych...

Scenes from the life of Jesus Christ, triptych. Constantinople, late 10th c., crimson ivory. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

There will come a time in our life where we will sit and wonder had we done things differently? Would our life have turned out differently?

We will ponder on mistakes we made. That left us distraught and dismayed. We will think about decisions that changed our life. Where we may have made things worse, given we had not thought about God once or twice. Or we will dwell on things that turned out as well as can be expected. And thanked God regardless, for the blessing.

We will reflect on things that were done for better or for worse. Good and bad things that occurred we think were either a blessing or a curse. Events that may have lifted our spirits or gotten us down, successful or failed businesses or jobs lost or found. There may have been marriages that are still going strong or may have ended in divorce but as a result helped us grow only to be stronger.

What can be said about the life we lived? Will it be a life remembered filled with sadness and tears. To ponder decisions made without wisdom that led to foolish actions. Or decisions that helped us learn from our actions? When faced with adversity, trouble, or strife, is it then we wonder what we did with our life? And ask questions that easily can be answered, had we given God time to send the right answer.

If you were given the opportunity to live life over again, would you do it only to change some things? Would you jump at the chance to correct the things you’ve done? Or would you thank God for the life he has given you and for what he has done.

Oftentimes life doesn’t go as we planned. However, it may be because it was our plan. For at any given moment, for reasons we may never understand, everything happens according to God’s plan. We may not feel there is absolute provision. When looking at our circumstances and indecision. There may be a fear of failure or the ability to maintain. But ultimately things will work for the greater good according to God’s plan.

God has predetermined the plan for our lives. He designed the blueprint that we may have everlasting life. He specifically designed a future for us. He created us to walk in the plan he set before us.

If I were given the opportunity to live my life over again, I wouldn’t change a thing. Because it is by God’s grace I lived to witness how he brought me through. The storm and the rain and gave me life anew.

How can I re-live something I never knew would be? How could I possibly re-live the life I never knew that was set before me? Had I not gone through trials and tribulations, I would not be able to rejoice in the revelation. Of God’s wondrous love and how he carried me this far.

I wouldn’t change a thing. I live life with no resentment or regrets. There may be some things I may never forget. But I can’t be upset. I am thankful for every part of what I endured in my life. It was a blessing no matter the strife. I take the bitter with the sweet, the good with the bad. I rejoice knowing my future is not predicated by my past. It is God’s plan to give me hope and a future. Plans by the Creator to prune and nurture. To develop into the person he predestined I would be. To be all that he created me to be.

God knew us before he formed us in our mother’s womb. He set us apart for his purpose. He will groom us. To be used as the vessel to fulfill His preplanned purpose. All things happen in life for a reason. It is for a purpose. God may reveal. It is his divine will. Do the work he has called you to do, live life abundantly in spite of what you’ve been through. He assigned it to you before you were born. Accept the call. Love, obey, and serve God.

Believe that the person you turned out to be, is the person God created you to be. Everything that concerns you will fulfill his purpose for you. Circumstances or situations are designed to perfect you. God will do that for you. Through every experience you face in life. Count it all joy. Be thankful for your life.

Life is a mystery. We will never know all the answers. But if you were to ask yourself this question, what would be your answer. If you were given the opportunity to live life over again, would you change anything? Or would you surrender your will to God and give Him reign? To do what he knows is best. Would you pass the test? Would you change some things to avoid what you experienced? Or would you accept the things you went through as a blessed experience?

To wish you had another life may not mean a thing had you lived it any other way. Embrace where you are today. God has given you the gift of life to freely live. Live and embellish it with trembling and fear. Don’t let it be your desire to change a thing. Instead, accept it as a blessing; cherish it, whatever it will bring. Glorify God. Do well with what you have. Your future is waiting, let go of your past. Had it not been for the plans God had for your life, you may not be here today to witness the life of Christ. Rejoice. Appreciate it. Tell the world what God has done for you while living it.

Jesus’ life was a living example. God didn’t change a thing. Had anything changed, we wouldn’t be here to speak of how we have been changed. We wouldn’t be able to share the gospel of Christ. Had Jesus been sent here to live a different life. Thank God. Don’t regret a thing in your life.

Be blessed! -JD

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens: 2 a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, 3 a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, 4 a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, 5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, 6 a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, 7 a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, 8 a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.”

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When Life Is Not A Bed Of Roses

Today has been a peculiar day. My thoughts are all over the place. As I think of those who are struggling with the perils of life and may feel out of place.

The words I’ve chosen to share with you are a bit out of character for me. But I couldn’t help to share with you what I am thinking. I believe the things I speak of are someone’s reality. And an unreality for those who choose not to see but accept life as, “What will be, will be.”

When life changes in an instant and we have no control of it, it can be overwhelming and unclear. The very place we may find ourselves sometimes can be frightening and cause fear. Especially when we are not accustomed to the manner we are required to live. We start to lose sight of the purpose intended and question the reason why we may be there. We start looking at our circumstances that will cause our minds to wander in despair.

We begin to struggle mentally to maintain. We become overwhelmed and our thoughts begin to reflect pain. Pain we begin to feel in our hearts and head that may cause us to feel worthless and ashamed.

We begin to feel insecure and feel like we are victims when criticized. For everything, in the eyes of those who criticize and feel we are not doing anything right. We feel as though we are a burden and feel helpless. Even though, we would if we could, change the situation or correct it.

There are ones who may become depressed and begin to feel anxiety. And begin to say things like, “Why didn’t my life turn out the way it was supposed to be? I hate my life. Why am I here? What happened? Why can’t I maintain? Given the life I have lived, I shouldn’t be where I am. Why am I in such pain?”

Self-pity sets in and they begin to ask, “Why can’t anyone understand why I feel as I do? Why do they think they’re perfect but find fault in everything I do?” Or fail to understand there may be something they lack to make me feel accepted. When crushed on every side. It is perplexing.

If only they would take the time to look at the situation at hand. And try to have some empathy or simply understand. The adjustment that person had to make. And avoid making it a one-sided adjustment which may cause someone to mentally break.

Regardless who we are, change will come. It will require compromise. It will impact all parties involved and can be hard. There are sacrifices to be made on everyone’s part. But each person must be willing to make the sacrifice as they go through. And evaluate how they may positively contribute to the environment one will exist, because humility will be required from each of you

Not everyone is perfect, nor is life. At some point and time we all will experience change in our life. When this happens, we must not ignore the feelings of others. We may find ourselves in the same predicament and would expect the same from others.

We don’t know what people are going through. And to live with someone that lacks empathy can be challenging. Especially when one doesn’t like the predicament they now find themselves in.

What we think we become, and what we become we will live. We must not let the mind play tricks and cause us to believe we are worthless or have no reason to live. There is a reason and a purpose God still has us here. There is a reason for everything. Live. But don’t be overcome with anxiety or fear.

We must remember things happen in life at no fault of our own. But God will never forsake us or leave us alone. Everything happens for a reason. Seasons are temporary. They don’t last forever. Make the best of life until things get better.

We must learn to trust God in the midst of our storm. And have faith we will be delivered. No matter the storms, don’t cry yourself a river.

Don’t lose hope. God will not give you more than you can bear. He will supply all your needs even when it doesn’t look like it or you think life is not fair. We live in a fallen world and some things are to be expected. We have to be prepared for the unexpected.

Trust God in the midst of bad circumstances. Remember God is a god of second chances. Stay on course. Have faith. Trust God for everything. His love will overshadow clouds and peace he will bring.

When life is not a bed of roses, don’t overestimate it. Rather focus on what you make of it. To make a difference in the life you live and not what you think of it. Accept life for what it is and think on these things. No matter the hardships life may bring. When faced with uncertainty or change, believe it is for the best. Do the best you can with what you’ve got. Let God handle the rest.

Positive thinking is the key. The right mindset will help you face your fears. Don’t spend a lifetime wondering why or trying to figure life out, only to waste unnecessary years.

Let God be your guide in everything you do. Keep the faith. Remember, God will see you through. God is always with you.

Be blessed! -JD

James 1:12 “Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test , that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.”

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Do We Live Just to Die?

Life is a vapor. It’s not given freely. It’s not an entitlement nor should it be taken for granted. It’s a privilege.

Be grateful. Give thanks every day. Be a blessing to others on your way. You don’t know what others are going through or when life will end for you. Thank God each day you rise. No matter what life looks like in your present state of mind.

Suffering takes place in our lives to mold and shape us into the person God designed us to be. Yet, to suffer is painful regardless what form it comes in. Therefore, we should not trivialize its significance or the impact it has on one’s life. Consciousness and consideration of a person’s struggle must be a daily sacrifice. Because you never know when the day will come that your life will change and you will be one… of those people.

I can remember a time in my life when I used to tell myself if I were diagnosed with a deadly disease, I would be able to handle it based on the amount of suffering I have endured. While at the same time, adopting the wrong attitude saying things like, “It is what is and what will be, will be.” I had come to a point in my life where I believed in my own “false” reality.

Unconsciously letting words come out my mouth in haste. I would openly express it this way, “We all have to die from something one day. Don’t take to heart what you can’t change.” As if that wasn’t enough, I would go on to say, “I am going to keep doing me. And whatever happens when I die let it be. It’s all a part of life.” My thoughts: “Trivial matters of death.”

But one day here recently, that all changed. After watching one of my favorite shows, Private Practice, the other night, my entire perspective took a dramatic turn to the point where it scared me. It put fear in my heart that made me rethink my position.

Two of the characters were diagnosed with cancer; both were receiving radiation treatment but one was terminally ill. I was in tears. I couldn’t help but think of myself and this nonchalant, indignant attitude I had taken towards the detriment of my own life. I cried and couldn’t sleep all night.

I woke the next day, and for a long time, I was in deep thought about life; mine in particular and really wondered how I would handle it if I were told I had cancer or any other condition that would render me terminally ill. Better yet, what would I do if the conditions I now suffer with would contribute to my demise? I didn’t know but what it caused me to do was take a different approach.

I began to do a self-evaluation. Upon reflection of my life and the decisions I made, I asked myself, “What was it that made me feel this way? What would possess me to believe it is okay, to think death is that simple or not take into account the seriousness of it. Nor was it becoming of me to take a nonchalant attitude when saying things like, “life happens and we all will die.” Again, I had to ask myself, “Why?”

I thought, maybe one of the reasons could be that my heart was hardened towards people in need, no matter how sick or damaged they seemed. I had to take a hard look at myself. Realizing I needed help. For years I found it easy to be this way…until one day…. my life changed.

So often we take things for granted when selfishly putting our needs before others. We believe when we’re well and able to take care of ourselves, we think life’s good. It’s okay. Outside of every day struggles; we believe it is normal.

Never realizing what would happen if in a split second life changed under no control of your own. And all that you had was taken away. What would life be to you that day? What if you were to lose things that mattered most to you? Things not limited but would include your strength, your sanity, your health, your worldly possessions, your self-esteem, and your dignity. How would you handle life then? It prompted me to reflect and think on these things:

Too often we go through life blindly. Never once realizing what is given to us doesn’t come free. Life is a gift but we fail to cherish it. And why some of us fail miserably at handling it.

We don’t take into account the impact failure brings until we are faced with having to deal extensively with the storm after the rain. We call it the aftermath, coupled with severe effects. At which time will have a greater impact than what we are accustomed to; our physical well-being, our mind-set, and our attitude. I know. It happened to me. My heart became hardened because of things I refused to see.

I thought I was exempt. I lived carefree. Nothing bothered me. I was insensitive to the plight of others, uncompassionate to those who suffered. And inconsiderate to many who I thought was over exaggerating the seriousness of their situation because they sought attention.

I never once thought I had a problem. I blamed it on the world and everyone else; failing to take a look in the mirror at myself. It revealed what my life showed. A person filled with emptiness and void; and cared less about others. I had become an insensitive, rude, and uncompassionate individual who spent two-thirds of a lifetime living in contempt. I lived life on a whim. Never taking seriously how my life would end.

My attitude wasn’t that great either. Thought it all was about me. I couldn’t understand why life was so unfair. Never looking outside of myself each time I focused on my circumstances and encountered despair. Although I suffered from many ailments that clearly were not my fault. I blamed the world for the hand I had been dealt.

As intelligent as I was, for the life of me, I couldn’t grasp the depth of its reality. I didn’t want to understand but instead wanted to feel sorry for myself. And I looked for pity and validation from others when seeking help. Regardless of the fact what they knew about me, I wanted them to feel sorry for me. To make matters worse, this was my mind-set too. I believed my life was doomed.

My thought process led me to believe my own “false” truth. I felt, on my own, I could endure anything. I was invincible, regardless what diagnosis the doctor would bring. I believed in myself; selfish me. I believed I would manage even in my weakest moments mentally. I failed to deny anything my mind would tell me. Although pain was my middle name, I felt I could get through anything… sinful pride. Foolish was I.

And to think, God takes care of babies and fools. God, I thank you. For leading me to the very things you needed to show me. Albeit, the journey I traveled was not easy. I made a lot of mistakes. There were too many priorities. And I took for granted the life you gave to me. Along with underestimation of death, thinking it was okay to not fret, over how I would die.

It was not until after I traveled one long and hard journey filled with agony, pain, heartbreak, disappointment, and defeat that I began to see things and people differently. My heart changed. My consciousness and mental awareness changed too. There was something else I needed to do. I needed to be held accountable for the lack of sincerity I had shown. I had to change what I had done.

God began a great work in me, revealing things outside of my “false” reality. He revealed and told me, “This is not about you, but about me.” I needed to give him glory in spite of what was taken from me; a life of luxury I thought was necessary to complete me.

It was amazing. I can’t even explain. I found purpose to live again. I found myself searching for answers to the missing pieces of the puzzle. Things began to manifest within each circumstance I faced. I would find myself meeting people in different places. That either was in the same position I was or were worse off than me. Each experience I encountered taught humility.

I began to concentrate and focus extensively on God. I started looking for the lesson to be learned. I started reading the Word every day. I would meditate. In pursuit of intimacy with Him, I wanted to know more about God. I wanted to be clear on the things he desired from me. So that I could live the life he set before me.

With my heart open wide, I stopped feeling sorry for myself. I developed genuine compassion for others with God’s help. I learned about God’s ways which taught me how to be considerate towards those in need. I cherished the relationships God sent to me.

No longer was I bound by selfish, careless thoughts of why it was necessary to live just to die. I no longer had to ask myself why. I developed a new attitude with plenty of gratitude. I found a new passion for people in pain. Not because of what I went through but because my heart changed. I became diligent in my efforts as an advocate for change.

I believed it was not fair to discount the seriousness of what others are going through. Even if on the outside they look well to you. Many of us suffer in different ways. Whether it’s mentally, physically, or spiritually we all live with some type of pain.

We should not question the suffering of others just because they look okay or because their issue may not be as serious as the next person. We must learn to be considerate of their feelings and have compassion if we profess to be Christians. We must have the love of God in our hearts as God teaches us to love one another. We must have love for all our sisters and brothers.

The road I’ve traveled taught me many things, but the thing I’m most grateful for, is  I won’t ever say this again, “If I’m diagnosed, it’s not on me. It’s on you.” I won’t be insensitive to what others are going through.

Although my life isn’t what I hoped it would be. I won’t ever take life for granted or the seriousness of any condition that ails others; even me. I won’t ever be inconsiderate of the suffering of others. I will cherish life and the opportunity God has blessed me to be a part of.

We don’t know the day or the hour. It is not for us to say when. It is not in our power. We cannot predict the end.  Only God determines it. We must make sure we’re ready when it comes. Our living while here on earth must be a reflection of not who we are, but what we’ve done… to please God.

I’m blessed because my experiences led me, ultimately to the purpose God prepared for me. It became the catalyst which I found God and re-established my relationship with him. And for that I am so thankful. Without God, I would be nothing. My world now revolves around him.

I realize my life must now be a reflection of the life I now live for God. For, I AM an ambassador of Christ. I will work to honor him in spite of strife. His agenda is my agenda. The spirit of the Lord is upon me. I will walk with integrity. I will live to please God through all humanity.

2 Corinthians 5:20 “So we are Christ’s ambassadors; God is making his appeal through us.”

I won’t ever make the mistake and presume it is okay to be indifferent, selfish, and self-centered when it comes to others. I will have the love of God in my heart for my sisters and brothers. I will make it my goal to move myself out of the way. I will center on selflessness every day.

While it is true we all will die one day. Don’t let it take away the reason God wakes you every day. The issue must not be that we will die. But the manner in which we lived should the truth lie. Be cognizant of how you treat others and what you choose to do. For the life you choose to live will be a reflection of you. The life you live, to some degree. Could very well determine the way you will leave… this earth.

Ezekial 36:26-27 “I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. 27 And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws.”

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