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If God Gave Each of Us What We Truly Deserved, We Would Be In Big Trouble

wpid-img_20140621_215233.jpgOftentimes when we want answers right away it’s usually when we’re hurt, impatient, and angry. God will challenge us to see how we handle it. In order to get to where you’re going you have to go through places you will not want to. You’ll have to come out your comfort zone to get through.

If God can’t trust you with little things, how can he trust you with much? Don’t despise small beginnings. It can lead to great endings.

In everything that you are masters of and those things you cannot master, your desires, failures, mistakes, and circumstances, commit them to God the Master. Trust Him. Let him know, “I trust you Lord.” His grace is sufficient.

At times, when you’re going through and it seems God isn’t listening or he is not there. He’s listening. Are you listening for the still small voice? When it seems God is silent, it’s not that he is. It may be that we’ve stopped listening. God speaks to us through his word. Study the Word. Listen.

When we commit everything to the Lord, burdens of life cease to be ours and become His. He’s a problem solver. We’re free from life’s problems. Put faith in action. When you put it in God’s hands, take your hands off it and let him do his work as only he can. Trust Him. God can move mountains.

You are as good as can be expected but greater than can be expected, when you expect the unexpected from God. You have to think yourself happy in the midst of the storm. When you’re thinking, you should also be thanking God you’re able to stand strong.

People will disappoint you every day. They’ll try to frustrate God’s purpose and make you question your calling. Don’t let them. Walk in your destiny. Walk on purpose.

If God gave each of us what we truly deserved, we would be in big trouble. His grace and mercy saves us. It is a gift. Be grateful to Him. We’re all battling something that seems impossible to overcome. We get tired and want to give up. Stay the course. Persevere. You’ll be glorified in Christ Jesus.

Be blessed! -JD

Hebrews 12:1-31 Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, 2 looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted.” (ESV)

 

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Secretly Searching

Today’s poem, titled Secretly Searching, is the third poem from my “mini-series” of poems I promised to share in between normal posts that was written during my college years. My professor had little to say about this one but I felt good about it after writing.

I think this also was a time when I was still hurting from a loss and my mind was filled with questions as to why things had to happen the way they did.  However, one of the things I observed that seem to be common in some of my writings is how I wrote from a place of emotional pain, hurt, resentment seemingly based on a past I couldn’t let go of. On the other hand, I’m grateful for the experience.

For the most part, my professor had this to say, “Good idea. The rhyme seems to get in the way here.” I took that with a grain of salt. After all, this was a beginning for me and I thought poetry was about rhyme. Silly me :-). Thanks to him, I learned a lot. Enjoy!

Secretly Searching

Secretly SearchingI often wonder why?
And yes…I try
I picture loving
But always shoving, aside
It hurts so, yet it feels so good
If only I could (What shall I do?)

I can imagine the twinkle in my eye
Is it a teardrop from my cry?
Oh – my smile full of gleam
… But it hurts so much…
If only I can touch…

Images closer than mirrors
Scents within souls,
Hearts fluttering,
Moods smothering,
Is the key I hold, so close?

Climbing within the depths of me
Floating the brims among the sea
Sitting around a bushel of love
With a fistful of hope in one hand
The other, my rope

It feels so good
Why can’t I understand?
Love and trust
Comes hand in hand

-JD

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Don’t Allow Your Circumstances To Change You

The one thing I find that does not change in life is facing opposition or obstacles. Not a day goes by that something does not happen in our lives where we are driven to make a choice either with how we will respond to a situation or how we will behave because of a situation that someone else may have caused prompting an unsolicited response.

Some of us may wake with a feeling of joy, contentment, and accomplishment feeling blessed and thankful God allowed us to see another day. Only to feel lost, broken, confused, and downright sick and tired of being sick and tired when faced with an issue that will affect our well-being or our life because something drastically changed by the middle, end, or few hours of the day.

It took me years to arrive at the place I now find myself being content with how I choose to handle things but I think back on a time when the least annoyance or literal change in my life would cause me to explode, rant, rave, and be in an uproar because of my inability to change the course of action to fit my selfish needs. It didn’t matter who was affected by my decision nor did it matter how I would react. All that mattered is I needed to have my own way. And I would allow obstacles and my way of thinking get in my way preventing me from thinking rationally to make an appropriate decision that would minimize its affects, because of me.

Through time as I developed and matured in my relationship with God, I changed and the manner in how I would respond to situations changed drastically. I accredit this all to God. And while many believe when you grow in age, with age comes wisdom. I am convinced with knowledge of God, when we look to God, come godly wisdom.

Life changes and we do to. But when we learn to accept that which is in our control and leave the rest up to God, we will change for the better too. Emotional responses and irrational thinking will render unfavorable results. Wouldn’t it be easier to respond in a way that will favorably change the outcome and bring favorable results? Instead of  blowing our temper, giving up in frustration, and simply leaving it only to have it come full circle again because we really had not resolved it properly in the first place. We can choose to go to God. Make a decision with a clear mind, seek his direction, find an honorable solution when given discernment and move on, trusting God.

Every day the enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy. And in most cases, it starts in the mind. We are what we think and we become what we feel when we lose sight of who we are. When we allow our minds to convince us we are above all things on earth and above God and can handle everything that comes our way, we will fail because of refusal to change our mind set. We suffer the consequence even though we could have avoided it. And cause our own demise out of failure to grow spiritually and look to God for wisdom and knowledge in it.

Be willing to change your way of thinking when making decisions in life where nothing is off limits when it concerns your well-being, your health, your children, your finances, and your family. Look to the source, God, for guidance. Choose not to respond to the situation. Suffer not in your affliction. It may seem hard, too much to bear. Know that God will give you strength to endure in your suffering.

You may not understand what you are going through. Regardless what suffering may bring, keep the faith. Trust God to bring you through. In your worst circumstance, rely on God. In the worst situation, trust God. He will bring you through. God promised you.

Everything in the Bible counsels us to trust God in all things no matter the circumstance. Trust in God. Don’t look at your circumstance. “Trust overcomes fear. Trust overcomes depression. Trust overcomes hate.” (1Pe 4:19) You will walk hating everything about your life when you lose sight of God and choose not to change your way of thinking or wait.

Don’t let your circumstance allow you to fear. And cause your mind to convince you to think irrationally out of fear. Trust God in good times and bad, during rainstorms and cloudy days. Even when your money is low and your pockets are full of small change. Trust God in all things. “No matter how overwhelming the situation looks or how it makes you feel” don’t respond out of emotion. Look to God for answers to questions he will reveal (4:19). Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find (Matt 7:7). Don’t conform to the patterns of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind (Ro 12:2).

Pursue knowledge of God to grow spiritually. Change your mindset that you may think clearly. Seek godly wisdom, the Word of God. Rely solely on God. Grow in Christ. Let the Holy Spirit guide your thoughts and actions in reveal of the right answers in order to make the right decisions fearlessly. Have the mind of Christ.

Don’t allow your circumstances to change you. Even if your situation may not change, consider it an opportunity to allow God to change you. Your heart and mind will also change. Rely on God. You will never be the same.

Be blessed! -JD

1 Peter 4:12-13 “Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. 13 But rejoice insofar as you share Christ’s sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed.” (ESV)

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Trust God in Your Brokenness

Trust is essential to the core of our existence but when it is destroyed it leaves us helpless and defenseless. Where there is no trust, fear will rule our life. And can become difficult to overcome in order to live a successful life.

Past experiences can play a major role in the development of trust issues. And can begin as early as childhood based on what you’ve seen in your parents’ relationships. Or what you’ve seen in the relationship of others. Abuse, neglect, and violent behavior are some of the things that will hinder your ability to trust others. It can be especially difficult if you carry the emotional damage into other areas of your life. When making a transition. It can be painful because of the personal sacrifice.

There are some who don’t ever think it’s necessary to change. As long as they’re content with the life they live and can keep doing the same things. Sadly, they will miss the blessing. When failing to learn from the experience and embrace the lesson.

For those who have been betrayed or felt abandoned, this is an example of what their life may look like. Every encounter is suspect. The motives of others are questionable. And in some cases, we can’t trust ourselves and become paranoid with unresolved issues. We even start blaming ourselves for the way things turned out. We feel unworthy. And say it was our fault that it didn’t turn out right.

Sadly, many don’t understand the impact trust has on a person’s emotional or psychological well-being. And even worse, while you may still be in bondage, they have moved on with their life only to bring the same issues into the place they may find themselves. When in reality, their life too is meaningless. Be it a spouse, significant other, a job, or a relationship. They will start where they left off in a new place but the same issues still will exist. Nothing is resolved even if they try to replace it.

Trust issues will transfer into the “new” life that really is still the “old” life. It’s just with another person, in another place, or with another thing. It’s the same life. The same implications will exist no matter what you may see, based on what success you think your life will bring.

When trust is broken it can destroy a person emotionally, physically, and mentally. The mind may become confused, impaired, and irreparable clouding your perception and your reality. Some may harbor resentment, resistance and may become bitter. Some will seek revenge. Others may look to God for refuge and give him control to avenge.

But what happens when you think you’ve conquered the issue of trust and one day encounter one of the very people or thing that led to it. And your reaction clearly validates you’re not over it. But instead you’re still bound by it. We all have been there. Trust me. I know. I lived it.

What do you do when you run into someone you once knew and they ask “How are you?” You begin to speak about how good God has been to you. How God changed your life. You notice the expression on their face. They’re as quiet as a mouse. They have nothing to say about their life. You sense something troubling about them. But you can’t put your finger on it. You place it in the back of your mind and remind yourself to pray for them.

You say your good-byes and something comes over you. You start thanking God because he knew. Grateful He removed you from that place to protect you. You found forgiveness and have started life anew.

Although a void in your life may exist. External fulfillment will hinder your ability to honestly evaluate what you assume drives your existence versus what is required. I believe the first thing necessary is prayer to discern how to begin working on voids that will diminish your own selfish desires. Second is to seek God’s plan. It’s required.

In order to move on from your past hurts, use prayer and God for strength to overcome. Voids can be used as the catalyst in the building of a foundation to place you at a greater level than where you see yourself. It will help you begin the process of starting over and heal, with God’s help.

As believers, fear is not an option. Nor should it be a hindrance. We mustn’t become bound by it. Even if people may have walked out on you, walk by faith and the power God has given. For it is because of God’s faithfulness that we are still living. There may be others who rejected, hurt, or abused you. There may even be some who don’t accept you. God still will elevate you, “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind” (2 Timothy 1:7 KJV). You will be healed, in time.

Your heart may have been broken. God knows and can see it. Surrender your will to him in your brokenness and he will fix it. You may have experienced trials, tribulations, and pain. Go to God. We need God in all things. Be honest with God and acknowledge where your heart stands. Come to Him, naked and unashamed. Proclaim deliverance. God doesn’t change. He’s the same yesterday, today, and forever. No weapon formed against you shall prosper.

God’s Word contains a solution for every problem, a promise for every need, a plan to prosper you and not harm you. He has plans for you to succeed. Trust him and he will send resolve for that which binds you. He knows your future. He’s with, for, on side, in front, and behind you.

Trust God in your brokenness. His grace will heal you.

Be blessed! -JD

Proverbs 3:5-8 NIV “Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; 6 In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths. 7 Do not be wise in your own eyes; Fear the LORD and depart from evil. 8 It will be health to your flesh, And strength to your bones.”

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Forgive To Heal….Trust Your Belief

One of the hardest things to accept is when someone disappoints, hurts or betrays you. Yet the greatest reaction is to see God in it and not react to them. But instead react to Him. It may anger you but when your heart is in the right place, you’ll overlook their sin. You’ll choose to follow God’s orders and not sin in it. It may hurt your feelings but you’ll get over it.

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When people hurt, disappoint or betray don’t take it personal or retaliate. Instead pray for them and wait.  God will see you through. And eventually, they will change too.

Your heart will be reflective of him because a heart of God will speak love. But a heart filled with bitterness and resentment speaks unforgiveness and is hard. A heart filled with contempt speaks lies and deceit. The latter is reserved for those who choose not to seek forgiveness and repent.

Trust will also play a major role in your response to a healthy life. As it manifests and renders your soul unhealthy when holding on to bitterness and strife. Ultimately bringing things such as pain and resentment as you live a defeated life.

Oftentimes a lingering lack of trust can be the very obstacle that will prevent your ability to move forward when you are blind to what’s hindering you. If you aren’t careful, complacency and blissful ignorance can lead to a lifetime of bondage in all you choose to do. But it doesn’t have to be this way. If you open your heart to God and let him lead the way.

Forgiveness begins in the heart and must first take place there in order to start the healing process. Otherwise you may never be burdenless. Even though it may be hard to get there, the most important thing is to learn to trust God on your way there. Learn to forgive yourself and forgive others; for your sake and not the sake of others.

While the prevalence of broken trust may be difficult or painful to forget, forgiveness will break the cycle of your unfaithfulness. But eventually it will be up to you. To make the choice that will lead to a healthy life that you may start fresh. Anew

No matter what people may do to hurt you. Remember, there’s nothing impossible God can’t do. Choose to stay in the right standing with him. Don’t rely on man to heal you but look to him. Be willing and open to change. Seek God in the midst of your pain. For, it is he that can make your life whole again.

Trust, have faith. Open your heart. Heal and be healed. Surrender to God’s will. Allow God to mend your heart so that you may forgive and be forgiven too. Overlook the offense, move forward, and let God lead you. To a life filled with joy that he promised you.

Turn every disappointment into a blessing, failures into successes. May trials become triumphs and tests become faith testaments. Forgive that you may heal. Trust that you may believe. Embrace all that God has in store for you. And you shall receive… a renewed life.

Be Blessed! -JD

Isaiah 43:25 “I, even I, am he who blots out your transgressions, for my own sake, and remembers your sins no more.”

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Who Are We To Judge?

Why is it every time I travel to see my doctor I find myself in conversation with the taxi driver defending the position of people who can no longer defend themselves? I have to wonder if this is something God is trying to bring to my attention in a certain area of my life. I won’t ignore it.

As I am riding home minding my own business, falling asleep in the back seat, the driver starts the conversation about the latest news story, the sad double-suicide of Kansas City Chief football player Jovan Belcher and his girlfriend Kassandra Perkins.

He was listening to the radio when the announcer made a statement that Mr. Belcher was a “bad guy.” The driver seconded the notion and said he definitely was a bad guy for committing such a cruel act.

He went on to say, “This guy had a career as a professional football player, money many of us couldn’t dream of having, and a beautiful girlfriend.” “He had it all. He was good until this happened.”

Now that he has killed himself and his girlfriend, he’s a bad guy. He said, “He was a coward because he killed not only himself but his girlfriend too. He was bad.”

Then, while I am not sure why, he proposed this assumption: “Maybe once he shot his girlfriend, he realized he would go to jail where he would spend the rest of his life so he turned the gun on himself.”

Me: Silence. You could hear a pin drop. Really didn’t want to say anything because for one, I didn’t want to speculate because we don’t know his reason for doing what he did or the process he chose which led up to the event. Two, does it really matter why he did it? Three, is it any of our business? I couldn’t give an answer yet.

”With my eyes closed, drowsy and a bit delirious, I said to myself, “Oh no. Here we go again.” My first thought was, “I’m too tired to engage in conversation with this man” but when he seconded the announcers’ statement categorizing this person as a “bad guy” without knowing anything about him. As well as stereotyping as society tend to do just because he was considered some famous person with money, I couldn’t help but offer my opinion. I listened before responding so as not to impose any judgment but be clear in my position on the matter.

I told him I didn’t think it was fair to call him a “bad guy” just because he committed a senseless act. I made it clear that we should not be quick to judge people just because they do something awful or stereotype just because we think we know what their life is like based on society’s preconceived notions.

We don’t know what kind of person he was since none of us knew him personally. Nor do we know what could have caused him to commit such an act.

We don’t know what he was going through, where his mind was at the time of this occurrence, or what he was struggling with that may have caused his mind to convince him to follow through.

To draw a conclusion about someone based on an act, in my opinion, is unfair. And sadly, this is the way of our world. We judge, condemn, criticize, and hate others based on color, appearance, sexual orientation, religious beliefs, and by their actions. That in itself is cruel. This is what I believe.

Money and career don’t make a person as society would have us believe. Just because he was a professional football player doesn’t mean he didn’t have financial troubles, had mental struggles, or suffered in some area of his life. Just because he had a career doesn’t mean he had lots of money. Just because he had a beautiful girlfriend doesn’t mean he had it all.

He was human just like us. And I’m sure as a human, he had problems just as we do, if not deeper than most of us may experience. There could have been some deep-rooted problem of hopelessness, worthlessness, clinical depression, pain, or sadness. We will never know.

But what I do know based on my experience is when individuals are in such a state, irrational thoughts cloud their judgment and the mind becomes an easy target.

Delusions, hallucinations, and the likes exist and in some cases are hard to distinguish from reality. Some people are strong enough to fight against the voices, others not so strong which lead to acts such as this.

Fame and fortune isn’t easy. Nor is it everything. It comes at a price. One cannot live a normal life. Money doesn’t buy happiness. One cannot be completely satisfied or content with the idea of constantly spending and getting what they want, getting nothing in return. Love doesn’t really conquer all with humans. Unless it is genuine, true love as God loves.

In concluding my conversation with this guy, my last statement to him was this, “I believe in God. I don’t think it is ever fair to judge a person because of what they do even if it isn’t right but we must leave it up to God. He will place judgment.” There was silence the rest of the ride until I reached my final destination. All was well that ended well.

My final thought. We can never know what others are going through. We must not condemn based on a notion. But instead pray for the family, friends, and society in general that peace and healing is found. Pray for strength. Pray for discernment. Pray.

As humans, we all will become discouraged at some point in our lives. The Bible has many Biblical characters that experienced discouragement and prayed to die. But they chose not to follow through. Instead, they remained obedient to God, sought his help, trusted Him, and relied on Him for deliverance. God provided them with a solution; just as he is able to do for us.

1 Corinthians 10:13 NKJV “No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it.”

Take these simple words of advice. Don’t be condescending but learn to have compassion. There are people hurting. A small gesture can save a life. Don’t be judgmental but leave it up to God. Your opinion matters and can be expressed in the right way as long as it doesn’t offend or hurt others. Acknowledge in love. Don’t take matters into your own hands but trust in the power of God that he will provide a way out. God is your source. He is a present help. Trust him.

And finally,

Matthew 7:1-2 “Judge not, that you be not judge. For with judgment you judge, you will be judged; and with the measure you use, it will be measured back to you. http://bible.us/Matt7.1-2.NKJV

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Change Makes You Stronger

wpid-img_20140621_161426.jpgAs I ponder on my life, I think about times when life was just that, “life” filled with ups and downs, trials and tribulations, struggles, sadness and fear. Yet it was during these times that I found myself rejoicing in the Lord, giving thanks for grace and mercy he bestowed upon me.

With change, at no fault of my own, I have gone through what I find to be the most difficult time in my life. With prayer and fasting bringing me through what I called tumultuous times. During prayer with my Mom as we touched and agreed, I literally cried out in tears to the Lord because at that moment, I needed him.

I needed him to let me know everything was going to be alright. I needed him to let me know I was not alone. I needed him to comfort and guide me. I needed him. So, it wasn’t surprising after prayer, oftentimes immediately, God would show up letting me know he was right beside me. He would prove to me he was there.

It was during this time I would experience the unimaginable. God would make the impossible possible. He would turn the ordinary into extraordinary. When I least expected it. His love for me prevailed. Blessing after blessing would appear from unexpected sources, unexpected places, and unsuspecting people. He would bless me abundantly beyond measure, even when I truly felt I didn’t deserve it. He did not forsake me.

I learned I mustn’t rely on material things or people for my provision. God was to be my only source. I learned when I believe what I hear from God it activates my faith. It clears my doubts. It restores me. It helps me build up others.

To live in bondage prevents deliverance. To stray away from those who represent Christ in my life would only give the enemy control. Control he didn’t deserve. I realized when faced with a trial, I must not lose faith but be able to recognize my faith in the manner I conduct myself. I must humble myself in order for God to move. God stands for power and truth.

It took a long time but through situations and circumstances, I’ve learned to trust in God. I learned how to activate my faith without hesitation. I am getting better. I’m not fully where I need to be but I’m better at where I am supposed to be.

I am a believer in the power of God and what it is He can and will do. When things seem like they are not going to go as planned (which is more often than most), I am assured God will come right on time. In spite of lies against God’s truth the enemy attempts to convince me of when in the broken, fragile state I find myself in from time to time.

I am convinced my identity is in Christ. Not based on worldly possessions of a job, a car, a house, or who I marry, but in Christ. I am one of his disciples. My life must be a reflection of that when the enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy in order to come against his attack. I have FAITH. I am safe in God.

Life can be so complicated and oftentimes, we lose our way and the sight of God. We know he’s there, but lose sight of him when we look to our circumstances but instead should look to Him. For, “God is not a man, that he should lie, nor a son of man, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?” Numbers 23:19

No, he doesn’t speak and then not act. No, he doesn’t promise and not fulfill. His promise is his Word. I know. I am a witness to his goodness and mercy. I say “Yes”. When I think of all that God has brought me through, I can truly say “Thank you Jesus” for the wonderful things you have done for me in the midst of my troubles. I love you Lord, you are Alpha and Omega! I couldn’t do this thing called life without you. And second to God, I can’t forget my Mom. My heartfelt “Thank you” oh beautiful, gracious Mother. You are my rock. I ♥ Mom!!!

Trust God. He will take care of you. Have faith. Believe.

Be blessed for this is the day the Lord has made and in it we will rejoice!

“Lord, if I had ten thousand tongues it wouldn’t be enough to thank you. You’re the same yesterday, today and forever more. You’re my redeemer!” — JD

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